Wednesday, October 8, 2008

If they could just stay little...


My nephew, Joshua, was four years old and strapped in his car seat in the back of my old, beater car. We were coming back to Raleigh from Asheville for a weekend of "Lilo and Stitch," the dinosaur museum, Exploris and the "build-a-bear" store at the mall.

"Aunt Lee Lee?" he asked as we drove down I-40.

"Yes, buddy?" I responded.

"Are you my mommy's sister?"

"Yes, buddy, I am. Just like Banyan is your brother."

He thought about that for a while. Then he said:

"My mommy has another sister. Uncle Amy. She lives in heaven."

As the tears started to stream down my face over the pure, unadulterated sweetness of that moment, I just wanted to wrap that little boy in safety and comfort and make sure he never, ever had to feel pain. I wanted to make sure he had ice cream for every meal and had the Disney Channel playing on a nonstop loop all around him. I wanted him to have a pet unicorn that could fly and take him across a rainbow after school. I wanted him to have the golden ticket and live in the chocolate factory with the happy Oompa-Loompas. I wanted him to be Bastian Balthazar Bux, gliding across the clouds as Limahl crooned "Never Ending Story" in the background.

Six years later, I still feel that way about both my nephews. Joshua's 10 and Banyan's 8, but I want them to stay little 'til their Carters wear out. And I want them to... just. be. happy.

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If that made you cry, leave me a comment, 'cause I'm a little teary, too. :)

5 comments:

Kathy said...

That was so sweet. You have to turn this one into an article for the N&R. I was a bit surprised by your wish for unicorns. Thought you didn't like them.

Anonymous said...

Obviously I didn't cry, 'coz I'm a bloke. But Jill sure makes cute boys.

for a different kind of girl said...

This is sometimes how I feel, like, every couple of days at my house. I want to put encyclopedias on their head and make them stop growing, to record everything they say so I never forget their sweet sounding voices at this point in life. Little boys slay me. I am weak for them!

Anonymous said...

Thanks a lot, Leigh Ann! Now I'm bawling! I agree with Kathy that you need to use this as one of your articles.

sage said...

Nice story... I saw your post on the blogerela and thought, "there can't be but one Shallotte." And I'm right! I grew up across the river from you, or just up the intercoastal waterway...